Musicality

Yay! Last week I ordered music from Amazon, and it finally came! I got Paramore's Brand New Eyes, and Taylor Swift's album. Yippee, I feel like an idiot. But oh well, I'm really not ashamed to listen to country. At least I balance it out with metal. And Glee. I am suddenly slightly obsessed with Glee. Even though a lot of the music is fairly annoying, and it seems to be increasingly turning into a high school soap opera, I love it. I am thoroughly addicted. At the moment, my favourite character is Jesse. He has the best voice as well. Oh course he is playing Rachel, and he is obviously a spy for Vocal Adrenaline. But He's awesome anyway. Oh dear, I sound so horrible. It really is a good show! haha. Oh my. Well, enough. I must stop talking before I say something truly incriminating. Adieu, farewell. -Ahhh

It's the end of the month as we know it.

Wow! It's almost the end of April! It IS the end of April! where has the beginning of this year gone?? So crazy! 2010 is going soo fast! And I'm on reception again! How interesting. Did you know, I have two main fears, and they are ridiculous.

#1. Large things under water, such as whales and giant squid. 

and

#2. Bees. I am freaking terrified of bees.

Neither of these fears make any sense. I have never been involved in a traumatizing event involving bees or whales. I am an irrational being. Just though I'd mention that. Flippin 'eck, what is NOT scary about an octopus? Okay, so that's a drawing, but whatever.

 -the owner of irrational fears.

BooksBooksBooksBooks. Oh Literature, I Adore Thee.

Here is a list of 100 great books! Stolen from a friend's blog :-) I have read the bold ones, and I am in the process of reading the ones with an X next to them.

1 Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austen
2 The Lord of the Rings - JRR Tolkien X
3 Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte
4 Harry Potter series - JK Rowling X
5 To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
6 The Bible
7 Wuthering Heights - Emily Bronte
8 Nineteen Eighty Four - George Orwell
9 His Dark Materials - Philip Pullman
10 Great Expectations - Charles Dickens
11 Little Women - Louisa M Alcott
12 Tess of the D'Urbervilles
13 Catch 22 - Joseph Heller
14 Complete Works of Shakespeare X
15 Rebecca - Daphne Du Maurier
16 The Hobbit - JRR Tolkien
17 Birdsong - Sebastian Faulks
18 Catcher in the Rye - JD Salinger
19 The Time Traveller's Wife - Audrey Niffenegger
20 Middlemarch - George Eliot
21 Gone With The Wind - Margaret Mitchell
22 The Great Gatsby - F Scott Fitzgerald
23 Bleak House - Charles Dickens
24 War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy X
25 The Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams
26 Brideshead Revisited - Evelyn Waugh
27 Crime and Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky X
28 Grapes of Wrath - John Steinbeck
29 Alice in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll X
30 The Wind in the Willows - Kenneth Grahame
31 Anna Karenina - Leo Tolstoy
32 David Copperfield - Charles Dickens
33 Chronicles of Narnia - CS Lewis
34 Emma - Jane Austen
35 Persuasion - Jane Austen
36 The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe - CS Lewis (wait a sec, what about #33?)
37 The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini
38 Captain Corelli's Mandolin - Louis De Bernieres
39 Memoirs of a Geisha - Arthur Golden
40 Winnie the Pooh - AA Milne
41 Animal Farm - George Orwell
42 The Da Vinci Code - Dan Brown
43 One Hundred Years of Solitude - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
45 The Woman in White - Wilkie Collins
46 Anne of Green Gables - LM Montgomery
47 Far From The Madding Crowd - Thomas Hardy
48 The Handmaid's Tale - Margaret Atwood
49 Lord of the Flies - William Golding
50 Atonement - Ian McEwan
52 Dune - Frank Herbert
53 Cold Comfort Farm - Stella Gibbons
54 Sense and Sensibility - Jane Austen
55 A Suitable Boy - Vikram Seth
56 The Shadow of the Wind - Carlos Ruiz Zafon
57 A Tale Of Two Cities - Charles Dickens
58 Brave New World - Aldous Huxley
59 The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time - Mark Haddon
60 Love In The Time Of Cholera - Gabriel Garcia Marquez
61 Of Mice and Men - John Steinbeck
62 Lolita - Vladimir Nabokov
63 The Secret History - Donna Tartt
64 The Lovely Bones - Alice Sebold
65 Count of Monte Cristo - Alexandre Dumas
66 On The Road - Jack Kerouac
67 Jude the Obscure - Thomas Hardy
68 Bridget Jones's Diary - Helen Fielding
69 Midnight's Children - Salman Rushdie
70 Moby Dick - Herman Melville
71 Oliver Twist - Charles Dickens
72 Dracula - Bram Stoker
73 The Secret Garden - Frances Hodgson Burnett
74 Notes From A Small Island - Bill Bryson
75 Ulysses - James Joyce
76 The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath
77 Swallows and Amazons - Arthur Ransome
78 Germinal - Emile Zola
79 Vanity Fair - William Makepeace Thackeray
80 Possession - AS Byatt
81 A Christmas Carol - Charles Dickens
82 Cloud Atlas - David Mitchell
83 The Color Purple - Alice Walker
84 The Remains of the Day - Kazuo Ishiguro
85 Madame Bovary - Gustave Flaubert
86 A Fine Balance - Rohinton Mistry
87 Charlotte's Web - EB White
88 The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
89 Adventures of Sherlock Holmes - Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
90 The Faraway Tree Collection - Enid Blyton
91 Heart of Darkness - Joseph Conrad
92 The Little Prince - Antoine De Saint-Exupery
93 The Wasp Factory - Iain Banks
94 Watership Down - Richard Adams
95 A Confederacy of Dunces - John Kennedy Toole
96 A Town Like Alice - Nevil Shute
97 The Three Musketeers - Alexandre Dumas
98 Hamlet - William Shakespeare
99 Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Roald Dahl
100 Les Miserables - Victor Hugo X

Dang, only 17 read. But another 7 in the process... I guess I haven't really been reading many classics lately.

For the past few years my brother has been obsessing over Robert Jordan's (RIP) Wheel Of Time series. For one reason or another I haven't taken the chance to read them, being distracted with Twilight, etc. SO, last week, I finally got up the guts to start the (soon to be) 14 strong book series. *whew*, trying not to think about how long this could take me... ANYWAYS, I started book number one, The Eye of the World. And it is sooooo good. At the moment I am only about halfway through it. It's going a bit slower than usual, because I've been fairly busy lately. For a few day I only got about 1 chapter finished a day. But yeah, the book so far is fantastical. I love it. It is brilliantly written, and so imaginative. Even though some points do remind me of Lord of The Rings, it has really been super original so far, especially for fantasy. So the cover is... hilarious. The picture shows the main characters, all COMPLETELY wrong. Serious, Lan looks like a freaking giant, and Moiraine and her horse both look like midgets... And otherwise, none of the character look like or are wearing anything close to what is in the book. I find it very funny, especially since Robert Jordan used the same artist for the covers of all 11 of the Wheel of Time books he published before he passed away. Not exactly sure why. Anyhow, I must bee off - my sister is patiently lying on the floor waiting to use the computer. Adieu! -The tempestuous mushroom obsessive.

More Wallowing?

Oh today. It is an interesting day, yes it is. Church this morning was AMAZing. The Purefire team was there, and Paul Hopkins taught. It was seriously awesome. Had some awesome conversation with God. And then we got home, and I had a sudden lonely depression moment. So fun. I had to leave lunch to freak out for a few minutes. I don't really understand myself. At all. Stupid emotions. Wow, I have a headache this afternoon, and I don't know why. Well, I guess I have guess as to why I had sudden freak out times today. It's just a compilation of random events all suddenly stacked up together. on top of me. Everyone leaving, etc. The last two schools to leave have been painful for me. And then, today I really, really miss someone. He used to be like a brother to me, but now he's gone, and I probably won't see him again. Maybe ever. I've know this for like, half a year, but for some reason it's really hitting me today. I mean, it sort of makes sense - last night I had a dream he came back. But I've had at least twenty of those dreams since he left, but it never did this to me. Ugh. Oh life. Why does it have to be this way sometimes? I hate it. So much. Not life, just these situations. *siiiigh*. Mah. I wish I could go back a few years. Life was much more simple then. Wow, that is such a stereotypical teenage thing to say. Oh well. Alright, I must leave. Time to stop wallowing. Ta ta! -A

Mutterings of a self torchuring mind.

Ahh. Oh no. I feel it. I will not fall apart, I can't. They're gone though. Already. It is just now starting to sink in. I managed not to freak out when my beautiful last DTS left for good, because this football DTS was here... but... now they're gone... they just left this morning... there goes all my social interaction... I am exhausted of this... I can't handle it again... people say you get used to it, and get numb to the leaving of others, but I don't. I just get so freaking attached to people so flipping easy. Ugh. My stomach hurts. Why do I do this to myself? Grrr. I just don't want to have to go through the lonely months again. I can't handle that anymore. And I know I actually don't HAVE to this time. I have another very close friend. He never leaves me alone, and I don't want him to. God promised me to stay around even when they all left. He will keep me company through the lonely months, and the desperate moments. But it's hard,... to get that.... because I can't see him, physically... in the room... he I S here... but I can't technically 'hang out' with him. But I can. I can. And he's here. We chat, I can hear him sometimes... but It's not easy. I just need to get used to it still. Not feeling lonely when I don't need to. Which is all the time. He's always here. He's with me right now. Now. I can feel his presence in the room if I think about it. And he loves me so ridiculously too much. I don't deserve it, darnit. Aright, I need to go befriend the people inside now. Fare thee well. -Abbey