More Wallowing?

Oh today. It is an interesting day, yes it is. Church this morning was AMAZing. The Purefire team was there, and Paul Hopkins taught. It was seriously awesome. Had some awesome conversation with God. And then we got home, and I had a sudden lonely depression moment. So fun. I had to leave lunch to freak out for a few minutes. I don't really understand myself. At all. Stupid emotions. Wow, I have a headache this afternoon, and I don't know why. Well, I guess I have guess as to why I had sudden freak out times today. It's just a compilation of random events all suddenly stacked up together. on top of me. Everyone leaving, etc. The last two schools to leave have been painful for me. And then, today I really, really miss someone. He used to be like a brother to me, but now he's gone, and I probably won't see him again. Maybe ever. I've know this for like, half a year, but for some reason it's really hitting me today. I mean, it sort of makes sense - last night I had a dream he came back. But I've had at least twenty of those dreams since he left, but it never did this to me. Ugh. Oh life. Why does it have to be this way sometimes? I hate it. So much. Not life, just these situations. *siiiigh*. Mah. I wish I could go back a few years. Life was much more simple then. Wow, that is such a stereotypical teenage thing to say. Oh well. Alright, I must leave. Time to stop wallowing. Ta ta! -A