2010. MMX. deux-mille dix. Adieu! (Part 1)

Fairwell my beloved two-thousand-ten! I can't even see you anymore. and I didn't even get to hug you goodbye. You were a wonderful friend. We had so many good times together... *sniff* I'll miss you old friend!
Good times were very much had. Here are some of my highlights -

Visiting my beautiful, beautiful home, I love you Washington!! ;







Salmon! And so much of it for weeks... Mmmmm, ;

FINALLY getting to go to Mars Hill Church in Seattle! ;
Going to the Hartshill Hayes with people I love;




Our very realistic fire drill (by the way, everyone would have been dead. shoot.);

Discovering my favourite European city so far, Brussels! ;




Going to York Cathedral;

To be continued... Look up ↑↑↑

Happy New Year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR WORLD!! I can't believe it's already 2011!!! That is madness! Humm. Later on I will post some of my highlights from 2010. Wow, the end all ready! 2010 was sooo short! Or maybe it just seemed that way? No. I think it was ACTUALLY shorter than other years. Seriously.

10 Things To Brighten Up You're Day

Huge playmobile men,

Connecting with art :-)

A mushroom tree!

Goose glamour shots,

An Eiffel tower of suitcases,

Cheetah Print hair in Starbucks,

Drain pipes that look like friends :-)

Funny British signs,

Settlers of Catan Cake,
And,

Raccoon band shots!


Have a splendid day!

Long time since I saw you, eh?

Oh my, I need to learn to be much much more faithful with my blog. Chh. SO I am very much back in England now, and have been for several months. Wow, so much has been going on inside me - I really wish I had been better at keeping up on here for the past few months :-{ Now I can't put any of it into words! So frustrating. Right now, as I'm trying to think of what to say, situations, ideas, conversations, plans, dreams, are coming to mind. But they are swishing and swimming around my head like a bucket-load of demented worms. Not so helpful for clear thinking. I don't know what I think. I don't know what I feel.
Right now, I feel emotion. I am not sure what it is. It's in my stomach... deep. Pushing and pulling my heart around in circles. I'm not sure what it means, or where it's trying to lead me. But it's there, indescribable and unexplainable. Even to myself. It feels like a deep longing... for... something.
Off-track! Anyhow, that is one thing that is making my thoughts gallop around my head. This is just so frustrating to me, because there are so MANY things that I want to say, to verbalize, but they are all running away screaming from my head - like they don't want me to tell you about them. Lets just take a step back. Sometimes if I just start typing, what I want to say will eventually come out.
Hello, I'm Abbey! I'm 17 years old. Is that strange? I can't tell. It seems fairly average at the moment. I wish I was 16, and I wish I was 18. 17 is also good. I am liking it. But I am scared of it - I can't believe I am 17. It seems like I should be 7! or 28! Do I make sense to anyone but myself? I think not. I mean... time is going too fast. It seems like I should still be 8, because that's sort of how I feel... like I was 8 yesterday. and with how fast time is going, I'm almost expecting to wake up one morning and find myself 50 years old, half (or more) of my life gone! Oh dear, I hope that doesn't happen anytime soon. I hope I wake up 17 tomorrow.
Is it just me, or do these seem like the insane ramblings of a mad-woman?



Oh dear (deer). I wish I made sense.



*sigh* doesn't seem to be working. So life, right at the moment, is fairly average. I need to find more ways to make it spectacular, but I am beginning to run out of ideas. (suggestions, anyone?)

Oh my. My head feels so flummoxed right now. So twisty. Unfocused. Confused? Maybe. Ironic? Yes. Satisfied? No. Spirally and serpentine. Gone.

Hum. Methinks that is all I will be able to cull from my head for the time being. I will honestly try to keep up on here more though, so see ya! Have a wonderful Valentines day next year! Much love, peace and prosperity on all of you. Liberty, equality, fraternity! ..................

Here I am.

so here i am. in america. i freaking love this country. i feel soo much more at home here than anywhere else i've ever been. cereal. i want to die here. not now, but here. i LOVE this country. and this town. well, parts of it. i love the trees, and the people, and the mountains, and the food, and the styles, and the freaking space needle. i have missed this place SO much more than anyone will ever know. honestly, i would kill to go back in time. i miss my house more than everything else in the world combined. i want to be 5 again. i want to be little and living in 931 k street. with my family, my two dogs and three cats. i want the most dangerous thing i've ever done to be balancing on the back fence while my parents weren't looking. i want to get in trouble for leaving the yard without an adult. i want to hide under our canoe in the back yard on a hot summer day. i want to lie in the front lawn in the middle of the night and stare at the stars, wondering what the rest of the world looks like. i want to go eat strawberries in the back yard, knowing they were the only strawberries that would grow back there until next year. i want to walk, barefoot, to the candy store and spend a whole 25 cents on penny candy. i want to go on the awesome, exciting once a week trip to costco, and go try all the samples. i want to read old books about england, and picture it without knowing what it looks like. i want to sit in my bedroom all alone, wide-eyed reallly late at night - at least 8:30, wondering where kaeli and anna are and wondering what might be in the closet that could possibly eat me. i want to wonder what canadians are like, and what canada looks like. i want to be curious about europe and wonder which language they speak in holland. i want to run outside in the pouring rain and play with the earthworms that came sliding out of the cracks to avoid drowning. i want to pretend that i believe in ghosts with kayleen, and create my own fake ghost friend named 3. i want to think that walking around the block once is 'going on a walk'. i want to be super excited to get an e-mail account for the first time. i want the the worst film i have ever seen to be PG13. i want to think that the matrix is evil. i want to not know how to swear in foreign languages. i want to think that drinking a sip of mom's wine is exciting and rare. i want to think coffee consists only of black drip. i want the coolest music i listen to to be jump 5, aurora, stacie orrico and plus one. i want the most exciting food ever to mcdonalds and very rarely burgerville. i want seattle to be a really cool far off place that i get to go to every couple months.
i want to be satisfied with my life. i want to be super excited to go back to england. i want to be overjoyed to be in ywam. i want to be ready to make more new friends again. i want to be unemotional. i want to love happy things not deep melancholia. i want to want out of america. i want to want to travel a ton right now. i want to absolutely love my life in every respect. i want to be so excited about what i'm doing. lalalalalalalalalalalala.
happy birthday world. why am i always hungry? interesting question. alright, enough depressing wistfulness for one night. farewell internet. see ya. -me

On my own...

Here I am, in England. Soon it will be only me. What then? Thankfully in my aloneness I am not alone. There are still 25 or 30 other people on base. Just not mon famille. And, as it has been everytime I am left somewhat alone for periods of time, I haven't really noticed... not that I don't miss my family - I do, It's just that It almost feels... normal. Somehow living in a separate country from my family, living with friends, going about my life on my own (ish) feels... normal. Why the heck is that?? Well, YWAM has twisted my mind I guess. I have on the other hand, found myself singing On My Own much more often, but I think that may have more to do with my obsession with making life a musical than loneliness. Plus, it's one of my favourite songs. Oh how I love musicals.

I finally went to the doctor yesterday! So, it turns out that the reason I can see and feel my heartbeat in my stomach so well is... I'm skinny. Yeah, big surprise. I still have to get a stupid, evil, vampiric, blood test done though, just to make sure I don't have an overactive thyroid. Mah. I thoroughly despise having smiling, pain-loving women who know they are making the world a better place stab my veins with their cleverly designed blood stealers. I want to keep all of my blood, thank you very much. Is that strange? Hum.

Soo, I have watched SO much filmness since I got here. It's like this flat has a filmy aura-around it... You walk in and you just want to watch films... okay, so that is way over-exaggerated. But fun so say. I got up this morning and found my flat-mates/in loco parentises watching a show online :-) I love it.

Okay, so what is this all about - my parents are gone for what... 5 days, and my brother already has an injury! Apparently he fell out of the back of a pick-up truck... don't ask me how, none of my family will reply to anything we have written to them about it. So, he is supposedly okay, but you know Alex. He would say he was okay if he had just fallen off the side of the empire state building and landed in a truck full of steak knives. Ouch.

So, speaking of school, I should do some. I miss you world! Have a good life!

-Sincerely, Oxxana

May

Tis Maytime! Yay! Wow, so much going on right now. Or maybe not. I'm on reception at the moment.  So exciting. And I am alternating between waaaay too cold and waaaay to hot. Oh, yyeah. Ok. Enough. This is one of the most useless things I have ever written. Tata.

-mushroom obsessive